Last week as we walked arm and arm alongside our
beautiful children in the dirt, dodging the mud holes and the cattle, we talked
and laughed. Deep joy filled me as these girls laughed and giggled holding me
like I would fade away and all I wanted was to be able to give them EVERYTHING!
If only I could give them the world! But honestly my heart breaks as I battle
within myself with my own weaknesses. I often wonder; God will Kylee and I even
have enough money make it through next month?
Is there enough for us and all of these girls, Daddy? I laugh at my own inadequacy
as I am reminded even now about God’s faithfulness and His promises. “Don’t
worry about these things, saying what will we eat? What will we drink? What
will we wear? These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your
heavenly Father already knows all your needs. Seek the Kingdom of God above all
else and live righteously and he will give you everything you need.” (Matthew
6: 31-33) It’s still a fight, a constant battle, but the Father is saying, “The
victory has already been won, so do not be afraid!”
As we come to a stop at the end of the road all the girls
stand silent around me, staring, hoping that we aren’t going to leave, and
usually at this point we stay for at least ten minutes continuing to love on
each of them. Today one of the little girls, probably around 8 or 9, seemed
oddly sad. I knelt down to look her in the eyes and she lowered her eyes even
further. “What is wrong? Are you ok?” I asked but she didn’t reply. I turned to
one of the older girls and asked her if she knew what was wrong with her. The
older girl said, “The teacher shaved a chuck of her hair off today because her
mother couldn’t pay for her head to be shaved and that is a rule!” Immediately
I turned to her and saw the chuck of hair missing. My heart broke! What shame
to put on a child that she has to publically walk around with a chuck of her
hair shaved in representation of the poverty at home! I was so upset and even
after I went home that night I could not get her off my mind. I laid in bed
thinking and praying for this child and by the time I fell asleep I had decided
that if I saw her next week I would take her to get her haircut.
For a week I thought about her, waiting with anticipation
for our next class together. Finally the day arrived and about mid-way into
class I caught eyes with her! There she was! My heart leapt and I smiled at
her. After class Kylee and I, with interpretation from our Kenyan leaders,
asked her if we could take her to get her a haircut. She nodded and smiled as
her eyes lit up.
When we finally arrived at the barber shop we ended up having
three little girls with us, in whom all got their haircuts! We had so much fun
and seeing how happy and excited these children were to receive haircuts filled
us with joy! After haircuts we said goodbye too two of the girl and then bought
the little one a pair of flip flops as we had noticed she was barefoot. By the
time this little one got home she was all smiles and hugged us tightly as she
whispered, “I love you,” in our ears.
After struggling all week with the lie of not having
enough and continuing to long to give, finally my love for these precious girls
won out over the worry for my own life and we gave! God does not ask us to
worry, instead he asks us to trust him in everything and give even if we have
nothing. Even if all I have is the change in my wallet I will continue to obey
and give, and my heart will rejoice and be glad!
Haircuts are vital for the children of Kenya for two
reasons:
#1 - Prevention from lice
#2- Keeps them out
of trouble
And the good news is…..
It only cost 36 CENTS (U.S)!!
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